lost

 i am feeling a little lost right now. it's 2021 and it does not look promising. i woke up today trying to gather my energy to get out of bed but it honestly felt like something was holding me back. i just wanted to stay in the warm comfort of my sheets not wanting to deal with the world.

i grabbed my phone- its reported that 4 people are dead after Trump supporters ransacked the Congress. was this the future we were promised? we have dealt with so much bs in 2020, are we still going to be dealing with this over 2021? i am not entirely sure whether i am mentally or physically capable.

they say that there is always light at the end of the tunnel, but what if i don't make it through til the end? its exhausting trying to keep your spirits up when toxic and negative energy is there to always dim the light. hope.. hope is all we can do. hope is all we have to keep pushing through these incredibly tough times. i do pray that we get through. only uncertainty is all we have to greet us.