Seeing him after awhile

haha,

yeah.. the title up above is indeed true. I did see my ex-crush just now.. and let me tell you this, it feels weird seeing him again after like not seeing him for more than a month or so. He has this new hairstyle which my friends think is gorgeous on him but I still think he looks better with the old one. I caught him looking over our table twice. Hmm, well anyways.. classes were okay today except for ComSki-Lec which has started feeling like a drag after the teacher was changed but there really is nothing that i can do about this because who am i to give authority to the campus on who's suppose to be teaching us and who shouldnt be. oh well, but thats life and i gotta live with it. hahaha!

til me next entry people. love y'all.

You are beautiful

haha,

thats what a chinese guy from my filipino class said to me. he said "You are beautiful." with his chinese-ish accent and he said it while staring right into my eyes. hahaha. I was so shocked that instead of saying thanks.. i turned away. seriously, how worst could it be? haha, i think he's cute though. haha, he's 21 i think. hmm...

aching heart

hey, im back. just woke up after crying myself to sleep. im just so not in the mood right now. i cried during a class and i cried when i got home. maybe its school. maybe its me. i dont really know anymore. a friend told me that i've been through so much.. thats the reason why i suddenly bursted out. sighs. im hating it right now.

God, please help me get through this.
:'(

one gloomy friday morning

its pretty dark out, shadows covering every corner of the room. i had to practically drag myself out of bed this morning to go to uni. gosh! at days like this , i prefer to be cuddling in me comfy sofa bed and sleeping the day away. hmm, just the though of it makes me just want to not go to school. i didnt even bother washing my hair today.. which i am scheduled for but i can do it later after all classes so yeah. sighs. i just grabbed a sweater and a shirt from my wardrobe incase it gets too breezy out. yawns. first lesson was a drag.. we were reminded of our group activities and the take-home quiz which was suppose to due on wednesday. thank God it doesnt have to be type-written. my allowance is costing me all the crappy printed pages.

arggh!

Turned off

okay, so macho guy is not my type and that he turns out to be a player according to another friend. haha - cos he's macho? anyways, i dont really mind because there's loads more other guys out there anyways so not much of a loss really.

lol!

haha, thats the good thing about this campus. Once you loose a guy, you can get another one at an instant. hmm, well maybe not THAT quick but sommat like that anyways. hehehee!

boy-cotting

you know what. i am so addicted to dipping Chips ahoy with cold milk. it's the best seriously. i can live with it till the day i die.

hmm, you know what.. not having a crush on one guy and checking out other guys are not bad at all. i think i'm starting to enjoy it even. hehehe! for intance, today we had a two and a half hour break and we were guy-watching and seriously, the campus is full of different looking guys: the goth, the emos, the rockers, the simple, the machos, the quarterbacks, the slim, the slenders, the models, the artists, etc. i could go on forever. Not to mention other nationalities and culture so yeah. every guy type you want is basically there. heheh!

i noticed this guy that dione pointed out just now. macho looking, cute guy whom i've caught staring more than once already. she asked me if i wanted to be introduced to him.. she knew him from her previous school.. and as the person that i am - i said no. haha. i think he's just cute though. nothing like my ex-crush. dione said she wanted those arms wrapped strongly around her. hahaha! typical.

i just cant understand how she can approach just about anybody EXCEPT her tarzan looking crush. haha! i think he's already suspecting something because whenever he's around we all go like "ehem! Dione!" and she's like "Oh God! Oh God! What do I do???" haha. sighs. i just wish that she'd approach him already and get it over with.

anyways, thats about it for today you guys. just a non-sensy blog!

:)

A bad 24/7

I cried.

Last night right after an exhausting day out in school and with all the pressure from my grades and lessons, I cried. Why? Because I lost my Bible. The Bible that my dad gave to me before I left for Philippines. The Bible that comforted me through thick and thin when I was homesick during the summer holiday. The Bible that I read everytime I got bored. The Bible that meant so much to me not just because it was printed and bought in Australia, but just the value of it to me.

I cried for a whole good hour.

Kat, a classmate, tried to comfort me. And I prayed to God before I slept last night that I'd find it.

To make the whole situation worse, I didn't get 8 hours of sleep just thinking of it and how my dad would react if he found out that I actually lost the Bible. Oh and that's not the end of it.. This morning, while I was washing my cups, guess what happened. Give up?

The water tap on my sink broke. Actually, when I moved in.. I had difficulties trying to get the water running. But the fact that it broke just as I was about to start my day made it worst, The water was leaking and I was trying to get through the reception downstairs through the intercom. But that too wasn't working. So I had to change from my PJs and go all the way down to inform them.

Well, unfortunately, the maintenance were all girls.. so they had no idea about whatever goes on when it comes to mechanics and pipes. Thank God the worker who helped built my unit was there. Because if he wasn't.. I would have left for school with my water tap leaking. Anyways, he said that the tap needed to be changed and that if we got a new one, he'd change it for me. I guess the hours of me chatting with him was worth it after all this time.

:)

PS: I asked the D/Os' in the campus if they happened to see a black little Bible in my class.. And it so happened that they did. When I saw my Bible.. I jumped for joy and did the sign of the cross. Haha! Dione saw it and laughed at me.. but I didn't care. Hahah! I so love my friends!

the weirdest of the weird

Hey all!

Sorry I haven't been updating you guys with what's been up with me. Hmm, if I'm not mistaken.. my previous post was about me wearing contacts. Well, yeah.. I didn't wear it to school yesterday because I freaked out about it being stuck in my eyes. It's my first time waring it today cos I had P.E. and we were doing all these jumps and aerobics and it's weird when your dorky glasses falls to the tip of your nose and you have to pull it back up to prevent yourself from looking like a total granny.

Anyways, did I tell you that I moved on from me ex-crush. Well, yeah.. I have. And you know what.. I saw him today. Right before P.E. class. Waiting alone - hiding himself from the crowd - meek, subtle, quiet. I haven't seen him for more than a week but yeah, it's sad that he still waits there and all. WHy I'm sharing all these.. I don't know!

contacts(?)

hey!

guess what..

I'M WEARING CONTACTS. And it's so cool. Like seriously, I thought it was going to be tough but it's okay. Lol! Anyways, Mira helped me with everything. she's the best. Lol!

I gotta do an essay on Mariang Makiling now.. so yeah. hmm!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the best person in my life!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA!!!

Even though I'm not the first person to be able to greet you back there.. I hope you know that I'm celebrating it with you. You have taught me so much that I can't even count the blessings that you have brought to the family. Thank you for always listening to me, for laughing with me and supporting me with whatever decisions I choose to take in. And for believing that I can be matured enough to stay on my own - even when I complain alot. For encouraging me, for inspiring me and for giving me strenght and a purpose in life. I am so thankful to God for bringing you into our lives. You are totally the BEST and COOLEST MOM alive to me.

And I can't say how much I LOVE YOU.

hugs you with all my strength.

hope you enjoy this special day of yours!

Tough logical fallacies

We had ComSki mid terms today. And I have only one word for it - toughness!

I seriously left a WHOLE section blank and almost all my answers were wrong. I tried studying for it last night til midnight. However, no information was stuck to my brain. I have NO IDEA why but yeah. I'm feeling giddy right now.. so I better stop.

Lunch with me friends

Hey, was just done with P.E. Gosh! Mid terms has been really tough. Like seriously. Anyways, we had lunch in the cafeteria today. We were dismissed early because of the exam so yeah... wasn't able to take a glance of my NEW crush around who usually hangs out at the coffee stand near the elivator area.. but hey, not seeing him for a day wont hurt.

Erm, I did however saw my EX-crush when we got to the cafeteria though. He was with a friend (again) but yeah, it didn't really bother me as much as the fact of me and him being in the same room, breathing the same air used to make me go crazy and wild. Lately, when he's around.. I manage to keep my body posture normally. Even my nervous hormones don't go crazy anymore either.

Bleh!

So yeah, after my friends bought their own lunch - me? I didn't get any. Too expensive. I was broke.. - we all chatted. I copied out afew notes that I've missed out on some lessons and yeah. Actually, new friends here aren't so bad. They're actually cool and hilarious. Really cracks you up and gives you tummy cramps. Sometimes they make you cry out of joy. haha. no joke!

But yeah, in short.. lunch with them was fun. We talked about all sorts of stuff.. like school, the teachers, food, love life.. all those.

:)

latest

Moved on...

just in

Its official...... im moving on from ex-crush!

doing what he does

All he does is pass by.. nothing more.

Why can't he just make the first move. I'm seriously getting bored of it. He stares, he looks and he smiles.

I want him to make an actual conversation. To make the next step. Cos I can NEVER do it.

:s

monthly clean up

After church and lunch with the Gurtiza sisters, I went back to my unit.

The whole room is such a pigsty. I just never have the time to clean everything up when things are so hectic in school. Although I'm only having lessons half the day.. I just try to avoid the going back to my unit because as I have already stated in my previous posts.... I have dreaded the silence in here.

So I started cleaning up the mess, wiping, scrubbing, brushing and stacking.. and then it was time for the toilet tiles to sparkle as well. Until everything was shiny enough, I decided to take a nap. And so now, just recently woke up and my back is aching so much but I'm sure it will hurt more tomorrow. Homeworks are piling up and mid terms are this week. Talk about pressure. Anyways, I have to figure out what I have to wear tomorrow.. seriously I used to think that uniforms sucked but now I wish that we had them cos although we don't wear uniforms in my school now, there are dress codes! Arrggh!

In the caf..

My ex-crush was there. Again. In the caf. It looks like we see each other VERY VERY often these days. Weird no? It looks like there is no more chance for me to avoid him for a whole week. Anyways, we were again, wearing the same colored tshirts. Only I've seen him wearing that black polo jacket of his afew weeks back. So yeah, although I must say that I think he looks wayyy much hotter with that pink shirt inside. Sighs!

Yeah, we were there before he and his group of friends came.. but still. Anyways, when Dione decided to leave the campus.. it would have been rude not to go with so me and Eliah left with her. So we grabbed our stuffs and headed at the exit of the cafeteria. When we reached the elivator area... he and his friends were so closely behind us - with us not being aware of it, of course. It was only when they passed by to go to the stairs that we noticed them. Haha! It was weird! I mean, when we left, they left as well?

hmm.. so much mystery!

First real EYE CONTACT (?)

Its raining hard out therefore.. I am so lazy to go back to the unit. Anyways, I didn't get the part in the school papaper. Turned me down for the rest of the day.

I'm super worn out in having a BAD BAD DAY!

Errm, right after Bible Study.. it was time to go have lunch right before P.E. and saw my ex-crush once again - waiting.. near the restroom area. He was with this big gang of friends. I kinda had to 'go' so yeah, later I took out water from the water distiller and I heard him raising his voice up 5 notches higher - or maybe 3. Haha! ANyways, I could almost hear EVERY word he was saying with that sulky voice of his. And later when my friendswere finally done with the restroom.. I turned to take one glance at him.. and I saw him.. PEEKING!! He was even pointing us out to a friend whom was a girl.

Weird right?

Anyways, around the elivator area.. he and his friends caught up with us and guess what... --I made my first REAL eye-contact with him. It was weird you know.. cos we were just staring at each other and it seemed like everything arond us vanished. Do I sound corny?

But yeah, it was weird. After that, I turned around and just didn't want to look at him again. But yeah, we saw each other in the caf.. and another weird part is that his guy friend was looking at us.. - again!

Haha.. in the contrary, it was a WEIRD BAD DAY!

too pink!

Xioba.. tignan mo ng maigi ha? See, mataba parin po ako! Huhuh! 'Yomo kasi maniwala eh. Yan na yung proof. haha!

recent post

Thanks Den, for the latest comment u made. I'll try my best to. Anyways, erm.. I saw him today again. He was wearing a white shirt and so was I. We keep wearing the same colored clothes for 2 days now - in a ROW. Is that another possible sign? Talk about weird no? Ttfn!

This piece of art is drawn by Dione! I love it!

less than an hour ago...

I saw my ex-crush again. He was waiting near the elivator area. And he looked REALLY CUTE!! - as usual. Anyways, I couldn't wait for him so when he was staring I went ahead and came inside the elivator. He seemed shocked though - maybe he expected me to approach him or something. And you all know I wont do that.

Anyways, that was it! Random post I KNOW!