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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ATE JOYCEE!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ATE JOYCE!!

Even though I ain't there to celebrate it with you.. hope that you enjoy and have a really good and enjoyable time!!

HUGS!

back to normal life

okay.. so right now im not into anyone yet. although i find it weird that guys stare at you when you're walking around the campus more often when you're not wearing glasses compared to when you are. sighs.. its so typical of guys to look at pretty, perfect-looking girls than those who are smart and well-respected.

anyways, i have communication skills lecture and jose rizal quizes tomorrow. i will review for it so dont worry. hmm, what else.. i got so many flattered comments from friends today.. i guess it kinda made my day. ahaha, plus i dont really care about my ex-crushes anymore... i just dont wanna care anymore. haha, although this mood would keep out throughout the end of the term... i hope. ahaha. gosh! i wanted to write so many things but i just dont remember what they were at this moment.

oh yeah, hung out with mira and velle.. we went to The Mall Of Asia and when i saw everyone with families enjoying themselves.. i remembered my family and suddenly had this urge.. maybe made me shed a tear or two but hey..no one noticed. thats about it anyways.. take care everybody.. thanks for checking my site as well.

having bad day

randomly bad enough to make me break down and cry.. sighs.. its just one of those days.

typical rainy day

woke up as my cell phone rang loudly at around 11am in the morning. It rang for atlease 5 times before i drowsily got up, grabbed my cell phone and answered it with my sleepy voice. It was my aunt, checking up if i was okay and to remind me to get to the photoshop later that day to copy a pic for my sister's college application form. After convincing her to calm down about it, she hung up and i went back to bed.

unfortunately, after afew attempts, i couldn't go back to sleep so i cleaned up and went downstairs on the reception area to make a call and find out if classes were still suspended for the day. apparently, it still is. *oh my my!* i gave a loud sigh and went back to my unit. did afew morning exercises and then grabbed the cereal box from the counter as well as the carton of milk in the fridge. It was still raining outside.. and i think 'God, please make the rain stop already.. how can we start our reviews when it keeps raining like this?'

anyways, drew a pic for Andy, a friend to cheer him up. he told me through ym that he was having a bad day.. here's the sketch:

ohh, and good luck to me sis who apparently is doing the 2nd reading in church today.. woot! you go and spread the word of God girl!

rainy day - a typhoon for a life

I just wanna say hello to tata and mama, to dila, nic, nana, faz, xioba, chin, dennis and to the rest who may possible be reading this post.

Heavy waters still gushing heavily through the outer side of the building. Lazily woke up at 10am.. so much for attempting to sleep early last night only to find out this morning through text messages from a classmate and mumy Tunay that all classes from all levels were suspended once again. Not shocking.

Anyways, ate cereals (honey stars) for breakfast and watched the news.. {you never know when the world might come to an end} and then afterwards started on my Jose Rizal thesis.. I know that its boring but the stuff's compulsory so yeah.

pride after fall

I saw him.. walking breezily to the coffee stand while I was on the other side. Me and a friend passed by and I caught his attention without meaning to. I felt his eyes staring at my face without any interferance. I liked it.. the way he stares at me like nothing/ nobody else is around but the both of us.

But instead of returning his gaze, my pride told me to just keep on walking and to pretend not to notice him. It won me over, but yeah.. it's too late to turn back time now when everythings' done.

I think I'm falling for him already. :s

screwed post?

well, i saw ex-crush today and yeah.. my feelings for him have not returned. not that im expecting any. haha, good sign. however, i do feel something for this hunk that used to give me signs that he was into me. well, initially he thought that i was into him because i kept staring (reason why i was staring at him was because a friend was crazily into him) and so he was responding by giving me signs that he too was into me. gets? anyways, when i stopped looking as ex-crush came to my life.. he faded in my memory and now that im so not into ex-crush anymore.. i think im starting to find him appealing.. or so. i dont know why i prefer guys who are outta my reach by yeah.

haha!

Rainy days - lonely ways

Hot mugs filled with hot choco liquid and marshmellows.. cookies to dip with warm milk and baggy sweaters to keep me warm. All schools have been cancelled from yesterday til today due to the heavy rainfall and the typhoon passing by the Philippines. I'm so bored to death watching the replays on TV. Not to mention the stack of books lying open on my bed.. yes, I have indeed been studying for the final exam coming soon and also for the Algeb quiz tomorrow.

I just hope that classes would start normally tomorrow cos quite frankly.. I'm missing this person.

Loads and loads of chocolate bars

I was invited out for lunch today.. but i felt like passing.. after all, im broke and i just have to learn to get a grip of money. Not that I'm like a spender and that I don;t have control but yeah,

hmm, temptations are always with me but I try to fight it although it makes life more complicated. hmm, what else.. i saw ex-crush today.. at first I didn't notice it was him passing by and then I saw him staring so yeah.. I just instantly noticed. He was in rocker style mode today. Hahaha!

What else, we spent the whole P.E. Lesson dancing silly aerobic moves and everyone passing by can see us through the transparent glasses. Oh yeah, there's this cute guy who's here in the campus cafe every thursdays and he was here again today. I was sitting next to him last week so thats when I noticed him. He left already so he can't possibly read this entry. Haha, he's tall and well built. hmm, cant really explain much but he looks like someone I used to like from church.. he's like a Shane Ward look-alike.. haha, anyways.. this entry is getting pretty long so I'm gonna stop. I had an more-than-okay day today. Hahah, I love the fact that it's our holiday tomorrow. Wee!

Seeing him after awhile

haha,

yeah.. the title up above is indeed true. I did see my ex-crush just now.. and let me tell you this, it feels weird seeing him again after like not seeing him for more than a month or so. He has this new hairstyle which my friends think is gorgeous on him but I still think he looks better with the old one. I caught him looking over our table twice. Hmm, well anyways.. classes were okay today except for ComSki-Lec which has started feeling like a drag after the teacher was changed but there really is nothing that i can do about this because who am i to give authority to the campus on who's suppose to be teaching us and who shouldnt be. oh well, but thats life and i gotta live with it. hahaha!

til me next entry people. love y'all.

You are beautiful

haha,

thats what a chinese guy from my filipino class said to me. he said "You are beautiful." with his chinese-ish accent and he said it while staring right into my eyes. hahaha. I was so shocked that instead of saying thanks.. i turned away. seriously, how worst could it be? haha, i think he's cute though. haha, he's 21 i think. hmm...

aching heart

hey, im back. just woke up after crying myself to sleep. im just so not in the mood right now. i cried during a class and i cried when i got home. maybe its school. maybe its me. i dont really know anymore. a friend told me that i've been through so much.. thats the reason why i suddenly bursted out. sighs. im hating it right now.

God, please help me get through this.
:'(

one gloomy friday morning

its pretty dark out, shadows covering every corner of the room. i had to practically drag myself out of bed this morning to go to uni. gosh! at days like this , i prefer to be cuddling in me comfy sofa bed and sleeping the day away. hmm, just the though of it makes me just want to not go to school. i didnt even bother washing my hair today.. which i am scheduled for but i can do it later after all classes so yeah. sighs. i just grabbed a sweater and a shirt from my wardrobe incase it gets too breezy out. yawns. first lesson was a drag.. we were reminded of our group activities and the take-home quiz which was suppose to due on wednesday. thank God it doesnt have to be type-written. my allowance is costing me all the crappy printed pages.

arggh!

Turned off

okay, so macho guy is not my type and that he turns out to be a player according to another friend. haha - cos he's macho? anyways, i dont really mind because there's loads more other guys out there anyways so not much of a loss really.

lol!

haha, thats the good thing about this campus. Once you loose a guy, you can get another one at an instant. hmm, well maybe not THAT quick but sommat like that anyways. hehehee!

boy-cotting

you know what. i am so addicted to dipping Chips ahoy with cold milk. it's the best seriously. i can live with it till the day i die.

hmm, you know what.. not having a crush on one guy and checking out other guys are not bad at all. i think i'm starting to enjoy it even. hehehe! for intance, today we had a two and a half hour break and we were guy-watching and seriously, the campus is full of different looking guys: the goth, the emos, the rockers, the simple, the machos, the quarterbacks, the slim, the slenders, the models, the artists, etc. i could go on forever. Not to mention other nationalities and culture so yeah. every guy type you want is basically there. heheh!

i noticed this guy that dione pointed out just now. macho looking, cute guy whom i've caught staring more than once already. she asked me if i wanted to be introduced to him.. she knew him from her previous school.. and as the person that i am - i said no. haha. i think he's just cute though. nothing like my ex-crush. dione said she wanted those arms wrapped strongly around her. hahaha! typical.

i just cant understand how she can approach just about anybody EXCEPT her tarzan looking crush. haha! i think he's already suspecting something because whenever he's around we all go like "ehem! Dione!" and she's like "Oh God! Oh God! What do I do???" haha. sighs. i just wish that she'd approach him already and get it over with.

anyways, thats about it for today you guys. just a non-sensy blog!

:)

A bad 24/7

I cried.

Last night right after an exhausting day out in school and with all the pressure from my grades and lessons, I cried. Why? Because I lost my Bible. The Bible that my dad gave to me before I left for Philippines. The Bible that comforted me through thick and thin when I was homesick during the summer holiday. The Bible that I read everytime I got bored. The Bible that meant so much to me not just because it was printed and bought in Australia, but just the value of it to me.

I cried for a whole good hour.

Kat, a classmate, tried to comfort me. And I prayed to God before I slept last night that I'd find it.

To make the whole situation worse, I didn't get 8 hours of sleep just thinking of it and how my dad would react if he found out that I actually lost the Bible. Oh and that's not the end of it.. This morning, while I was washing my cups, guess what happened. Give up?

The water tap on my sink broke. Actually, when I moved in.. I had difficulties trying to get the water running. But the fact that it broke just as I was about to start my day made it worst, The water was leaking and I was trying to get through the reception downstairs through the intercom. But that too wasn't working. So I had to change from my PJs and go all the way down to inform them.

Well, unfortunately, the maintenance were all girls.. so they had no idea about whatever goes on when it comes to mechanics and pipes. Thank God the worker who helped built my unit was there. Because if he wasn't.. I would have left for school with my water tap leaking. Anyways, he said that the tap needed to be changed and that if we got a new one, he'd change it for me. I guess the hours of me chatting with him was worth it after all this time.

:)

PS: I asked the D/Os' in the campus if they happened to see a black little Bible in my class.. And it so happened that they did. When I saw my Bible.. I jumped for joy and did the sign of the cross. Haha! Dione saw it and laughed at me.. but I didn't care. Hahah! I so love my friends!

the weirdest of the weird

Hey all!

Sorry I haven't been updating you guys with what's been up with me. Hmm, if I'm not mistaken.. my previous post was about me wearing contacts. Well, yeah.. I didn't wear it to school yesterday because I freaked out about it being stuck in my eyes. It's my first time waring it today cos I had P.E. and we were doing all these jumps and aerobics and it's weird when your dorky glasses falls to the tip of your nose and you have to pull it back up to prevent yourself from looking like a total granny.

Anyways, did I tell you that I moved on from me ex-crush. Well, yeah.. I have. And you know what.. I saw him today. Right before P.E. class. Waiting alone - hiding himself from the crowd - meek, subtle, quiet. I haven't seen him for more than a week but yeah, it's sad that he still waits there and all. WHy I'm sharing all these.. I don't know!

contacts(?)

hey!

guess what..

I'M WEARING CONTACTS. And it's so cool. Like seriously, I thought it was going to be tough but it's okay. Lol! Anyways, Mira helped me with everything. she's the best. Lol!

I gotta do an essay on Mariang Makiling now.. so yeah. hmm!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the best person in my life!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA!!!

Even though I'm not the first person to be able to greet you back there.. I hope you know that I'm celebrating it with you. You have taught me so much that I can't even count the blessings that you have brought to the family. Thank you for always listening to me, for laughing with me and supporting me with whatever decisions I choose to take in. And for believing that I can be matured enough to stay on my own - even when I complain alot. For encouraging me, for inspiring me and for giving me strenght and a purpose in life. I am so thankful to God for bringing you into our lives. You are totally the BEST and COOLEST MOM alive to me.

And I can't say how much I LOVE YOU.

hugs you with all my strength.

hope you enjoy this special day of yours!

Tough logical fallacies

We had ComSki mid terms today. And I have only one word for it - toughness!

I seriously left a WHOLE section blank and almost all my answers were wrong. I tried studying for it last night til midnight. However, no information was stuck to my brain. I have NO IDEA why but yeah. I'm feeling giddy right now.. so I better stop.

Lunch with me friends

Hey, was just done with P.E. Gosh! Mid terms has been really tough. Like seriously. Anyways, we had lunch in the cafeteria today. We were dismissed early because of the exam so yeah... wasn't able to take a glance of my NEW crush around who usually hangs out at the coffee stand near the elivator area.. but hey, not seeing him for a day wont hurt.

Erm, I did however saw my EX-crush when we got to the cafeteria though. He was with a friend (again) but yeah, it didn't really bother me as much as the fact of me and him being in the same room, breathing the same air used to make me go crazy and wild. Lately, when he's around.. I manage to keep my body posture normally. Even my nervous hormones don't go crazy anymore either.

Bleh!

So yeah, after my friends bought their own lunch - me? I didn't get any. Too expensive. I was broke.. - we all chatted. I copied out afew notes that I've missed out on some lessons and yeah. Actually, new friends here aren't so bad. They're actually cool and hilarious. Really cracks you up and gives you tummy cramps. Sometimes they make you cry out of joy. haha. no joke!

But yeah, in short.. lunch with them was fun. We talked about all sorts of stuff.. like school, the teachers, food, love life.. all those.

:)

latest

Moved on...

just in

Its official...... im moving on from ex-crush!

doing what he does

All he does is pass by.. nothing more.

Why can't he just make the first move. I'm seriously getting bored of it. He stares, he looks and he smiles.

I want him to make an actual conversation. To make the next step. Cos I can NEVER do it.

:s

monthly clean up

After church and lunch with the Gurtiza sisters, I went back to my unit.

The whole room is such a pigsty. I just never have the time to clean everything up when things are so hectic in school. Although I'm only having lessons half the day.. I just try to avoid the going back to my unit because as I have already stated in my previous posts.... I have dreaded the silence in here.

So I started cleaning up the mess, wiping, scrubbing, brushing and stacking.. and then it was time for the toilet tiles to sparkle as well. Until everything was shiny enough, I decided to take a nap. And so now, just recently woke up and my back is aching so much but I'm sure it will hurt more tomorrow. Homeworks are piling up and mid terms are this week. Talk about pressure. Anyways, I have to figure out what I have to wear tomorrow.. seriously I used to think that uniforms sucked but now I wish that we had them cos although we don't wear uniforms in my school now, there are dress codes! Arrggh!

In the caf..

My ex-crush was there. Again. In the caf. It looks like we see each other VERY VERY often these days. Weird no? It looks like there is no more chance for me to avoid him for a whole week. Anyways, we were again, wearing the same colored tshirts. Only I've seen him wearing that black polo jacket of his afew weeks back. So yeah, although I must say that I think he looks wayyy much hotter with that pink shirt inside. Sighs!

Yeah, we were there before he and his group of friends came.. but still. Anyways, when Dione decided to leave the campus.. it would have been rude not to go with so me and Eliah left with her. So we grabbed our stuffs and headed at the exit of the cafeteria. When we reached the elivator area... he and his friends were so closely behind us - with us not being aware of it, of course. It was only when they passed by to go to the stairs that we noticed them. Haha! It was weird! I mean, when we left, they left as well?

hmm.. so much mystery!

First real EYE CONTACT (?)

Its raining hard out therefore.. I am so lazy to go back to the unit. Anyways, I didn't get the part in the school papaper. Turned me down for the rest of the day.

I'm super worn out in having a BAD BAD DAY!

Errm, right after Bible Study.. it was time to go have lunch right before P.E. and saw my ex-crush once again - waiting.. near the restroom area. He was with this big gang of friends. I kinda had to 'go' so yeah, later I took out water from the water distiller and I heard him raising his voice up 5 notches higher - or maybe 3. Haha! ANyways, I could almost hear EVERY word he was saying with that sulky voice of his. And later when my friendswere finally done with the restroom.. I turned to take one glance at him.. and I saw him.. PEEKING!! He was even pointing us out to a friend whom was a girl.

Weird right?

Anyways, around the elivator area.. he and his friends caught up with us and guess what... --I made my first REAL eye-contact with him. It was weird you know.. cos we were just staring at each other and it seemed like everything arond us vanished. Do I sound corny?

But yeah, it was weird. After that, I turned around and just didn't want to look at him again. But yeah, we saw each other in the caf.. and another weird part is that his guy friend was looking at us.. - again!

Haha.. in the contrary, it was a WEIRD BAD DAY!

too pink!

Xioba.. tignan mo ng maigi ha? See, mataba parin po ako! Huhuh! 'Yomo kasi maniwala eh. Yan na yung proof. haha!

recent post

Thanks Den, for the latest comment u made. I'll try my best to. Anyways, erm.. I saw him today again. He was wearing a white shirt and so was I. We keep wearing the same colored clothes for 2 days now - in a ROW. Is that another possible sign? Talk about weird no? Ttfn!

This piece of art is drawn by Dione! I love it!

less than an hour ago...

I saw my ex-crush again. He was waiting near the elivator area. And he looked REALLY CUTE!! - as usual. Anyways, I couldn't wait for him so when he was staring I went ahead and came inside the elivator. He seemed shocked though - maybe he expected me to approach him or something. And you all know I wont do that.

Anyways, that was it! Random post I KNOW!

the more u screw me up

my crush is screwing me up. i keep thinking about him at the leastest unexpected times. And when he actually is around.. I don't feel anything. Seriously.. I have no idea what to do.

is it just me? or is it me?

I dunno of it's just me but yesterday, it seemed like my ex-crush was following me around?

Right after my classes before lunch, he was waiting at the rest room area.. with this friend.. When he caught my attention.. he gave me this cute expectant expression. What the hell did he want me to do?, I thought.

But then yeah.. I left it to it. Cos then I was waiting for the wonderful sparks to attack me.. but it didn't.. so yeah.

Anyways, later.. when we were having P.E. in a see through class (so whoever passes by can see whatever embarassing movements or exercise practicals we were doing) And he and his group passed by UNEXPECTEDLY.. (that wasn't usual) Gosh! They even took their time passing by. How humiliating? We were all jumping silly... and our boobies were going everwhere.. haha, thank God for SPORTS BRAS.

:p

Anyways, not only that but the photographers in the multi took pitures of me and Love, shaking hands and doing jumping exercises... THE MORE HUMILIATING IT GETS, NO?

anyways.. that's about it. I'm so telling you guys that I was born to be humiliated. haha!

were they signs?

Ok.. weird day...

1) Saw my crush.. or should I say ex-crush (i stopped being deadly into him cos he figured that I was into him) therefore, knowing that.. I just don't wanna stare at him or make any eye-contact with him anyways. Cos when we were dismissed yesterday at 11.10am, I had this URGE inside me to get in the nearly-closed elivator and when I was about to put my hand in between the elivator doors, it opened. Unexpectedly.. and when I saw who was pressing the elivator 'open' button.

It was him. My crush. My fecking ex- CRUSH!!

Anyways, seeing that, I exited the elivator and waited for another empty one. He was looking directly at me. Gosh, how easily I can melt in those beautiful hazel eyes of his.

Anyways, thinking that that was the end of the story.. I was wrong. When I got in the elivator.. me and a couple of friends decided to crash in the campus cafe just to randomly hang out. Guess who was there?

It was HIM again! Gosh, and yes, once again... Dione tried to get his attention by mentioning my name loudly and asking silly questions with obvious answers. She succeded once again as he looked.. or should I say.. he rather stared. Anyways, unlike the elivator incident in my previous post... strangely, this time.. I didn't burn red and I didn't feel like wishing that the floor would eat me up. Instead, I liked it. I know. Weird right? Gosh, Dione is such a bad influence on me... haha, but I love her anyways.

Anyways, when we were about to leave.. my crush decided to leave as well. They even tried to leave before us. And witnessing such, I decided that we'd stay. Dione left anyways.. but I stayed. I didn't mind. And when my ultimately ex-crush passed by our table, I caught him staring again. But what the heck.. I just didn't really seem to care. Happy, yes. But yeah.. I just didn't seem to feel any sparks anymore.

Yet, knowing so.. I don't know why I am wasting my time writing all these crap in my blog.

2) I joined the uni paper team. Well, I've just applied for it. And while doing so I was given so many mishaps, by God perhaps.. that almost made me give up wanting to join the team:

• when I submitted the application form, I was told that I was to submit the form along with 3 sample works that I've done.. which obviously all my works were left in Brunei!!!!
• Upon writing new sample works.. my laptop was borrowed to a friend and the computer I was using on the condo's ground floor shut down just when I was about a wee bit done from finishing my first draft.
• Stole the two other articles from my blog.. just so that they could get a grip on what kind of writing I love to do.
• It was raining and I had to go back from the uni back to the condo like... err, 5 times.
• When I thought I was ready to submit my works, I noticed that I recopied one of the articles and so I had to go back to the printers to print the new sheet.
• And FINALLY, I was able to submit my work... WET. and SLOPPY.

The lady who collected my work didn't seemed to mind that fact though. But yeah, I do hope I get in.. cos I really worked hard to do everything. It even cost me my whole week's allowance. So yeah.

Anyways, I have alot of assignments piled up for me this week.

* I have 2 essays to write. One of which is also due this week, Friday.
* A 12 paged script that we have to memorize.
* Writing revisions for coming mid-term next week.
* Writing parts on a shortband paper.

Arggghh!!! So for those of you who are reading this.. I have a message for you guys.. "ENJOY HIGH SCHOOL.. COS WHEN YOU GET TO UNI.. IT'S ALL WORK AND NO PLAY.. ERM.. NO FUN AS WELL"

condo crush (?)

ok.. so I was online using the free net access pc on the ground floor of the condo building and decided to go back up to get alot of rest from my horrible week. So I pressed the elivator botton and was waiting for it to reach ground level when this tall, cute filipino guy stood by my side.

When I looked up at him he gave me this boyish grin and so I smiled back.. He looks okay. And then the elivator arrived and we both went in. He asked me which floor I was in and I said "10th" and he pressed the 7th and 10th floor buttons.

He was giving me the signs that he wants my number (he took out his cellphone from his pocket and gave me this inquiring look) But he remained silent so I pretended not to get what he meant.

So yeah, after that he had to leave the elivator.

I think I may have seen him before already. My suspection is on the condo rooftop. See, I have this habit of going to the building's garden at the rooftop to watch the sun set around 6pm. And I think he's the guy who watches it with me up there. I'm not sure though.. cos I never really look at the people around me at that time... I'm just usually concentrating on the sight of the glorious sun.. so I don't try to see who might me up there with me.

Anyways, I have filipino coming up in 10 minutes. We HAVE to freaking sing.. can you believe?

Worst week

Here are my reasons:

• I was caught talking about my crush in the caf, BY my crush himself.
• Was rendered speechless in my graded presentation in class.
• Was humiliated inside of the elevator, with my crush in it by my friend.
• Got a first offence slip in school for wearing a freaking pair of slack slippers. Therefore, also meaning that I have a record in the school. I hate the DOs.
• We have to fecking sing infront of the class in filipino tomorrow.

I just hope my weekend will be better. GOD, WHAT DID I EVER DO TO DESERVE THIS?

wanna see my uni?

This is the campus that I got to.. The SDA Building (School of Arts and Designs)The feild in the main campus, taft area.

The founder of the university.
More green.. tents were set up for signing in the school organizations.
SDA Building through the rooftop of the main campus.
The Villarosa park.. where the students study and hang out.
Frosh Concert night : where the family welcomes the newcomers and people perform.. Didn't attend this but hey, stole the pics from friends anyways.

As this is an art school there are ballerinas and all those hip hop dancers that performed that night. Peace out (not my hand)

And darkness turned to light.
Guy singing his heart out.. till there was no voice left.
The whole of the concert night. Beautiful, no?

embarassment prone person.

Okay, remember in my previous post I mentioned that I saw my crush in the cafeteria (?) well.. if you're asking how I can say that my week went horrible.. here's the story:

When my friend pointed out that my crush was in the cafeteria.. I kind of mentioned his name out loud without realizing that I was doing so. And his friends were like staring at me like "what the hell".

and behold.. the story's not over yet..

Just now.. right after lunch, I was scheduled P.E. and so when we were on the elivator on the way to our P.E. class, my crush suddenly enters the elivator which was about to close by 2 inches. He got in. (Oh Gosh.. I was breathless.. he was GORGEOUS!! Wearing a crispy long-sleeved with it's cuffs folded to the elbow, faded jeans and he had his cellphone on his hand) And I suddenly became quiet.. -I also felt the elivator heaten up.. or wait, was it just me?- cos as I have already mentioned in my previous post.. HE HAS THIS EFFECT ON ME. He just makes me wanna watch him all day. Anyways, when Dione noticed that I was turning scarlet... she said " Ohh.. Karen has a crush" with her sing-a-song voice! I stood agog.. wishing that the elivator floor would eat me up. But of course that didn't happen. Instead.. my crush looked at me and he gave me this expression - i have no idea if it was good or bad. And then he had to leave cos his class was in the 9th floor and ours was in the 12th. It's my first time seeing him alone and so quiet cos I usually see him happily chatting with his friends.. but this time, he looked serious - the look makes him so much HOTTER!! Plus, he wasn't using his usual bag pack which gave him this ordinary-school-boy look, just now he was with his shoulder bag.. Sighs!

Oh my God!!!!

What did I do to deserve that!! This week!!! I was mad at Dione for awile but like always.. it fades so yeah. I don't ever hold grudges with anyone.. But still - it was public humiliation. Plus, why did he have to be in the same floor???!?! Everyone says so. Sighs. But life must go on..

presentation break down

we had to do this presentation just now... about Jose Rizal as our national hero.. and guess what's the worst thing that could ever happen to you while speaking in front of everyone - even the teacher..?

My mind went blank.. yes, for the whole of the 5 minutes!!!

But after that I was okay.. Still no.. it was embarassing!!!

*gasps*

Saw my crush in the cafeteria again!!

He was wearing this super sexy polo shirt. Oh My Gosh!! Took my breath away when I realized he was there. Sighness. He always has that effect on me. And I can't even help it.

friends

hey.. me just in. well, like any usual posting day.. I have just came from my lessons in SDA (School of Designs and Arts). Classes were terrifyingly horrible.. I am so way behind my scheduled reviews cos things have been hectic-er than usual.

Sighs.

So not easy.. I'm telling you - its soooo much different in uni compared to high school. Not even close to it actually. But yeah, we all try our best to adjust and everything.

OMG!! I just saw my crush afew hours ago too. He's like the first guy that I have a crush on since I began here in uni.. Saw him in the cafeteria today - eating. Sighs. He's just GAWWWJUSS (even when he chews)!!! Seriously, he's like one of the hearthrobs here in CSB ( well, the list is really endless ) but yeah, he's like one of those guys who girls usually go crazy for.. and the plus side here is that ' HE DOESN'T EVEN CARE '. And he treats everyone the same; charmingly nice and witty. Sighs more.

I'm abit shaky right now.. that's what happens when I drink coffee from STARBUCKS regularly and suddenly stops.. well, not only STARBUCKS really, basically any type of caffein would do. Haha! It's one of the weird facts about me.

:)

By the way, we've been having all these group works in our classes and all that I've started getting to know most of my classmates and frankly, they're not as bad as I imagined. Actually, they're really nice. Guess it was just me being me. Sighs. I guess leaving Brunei and leaving every close friend has made me a loner when I got here that I had tried not to make friends whom I can be close to in the future. In short, scared to put another friendship at stake. Or whatever. Anyways.. I'm outta here.

not a weird texter anymore

ok..so the weird texter creep turns out to be a guy from one of my classes. Less than 24 hours ago.. I have just ruined my chance to be in a really good relationship with this super NICE and CUTE guy from one of my classes. Sighs. I feelso down right now so I's stopping here before I start breaking the keyboard.

weirdo texter

last night i got a message from a stranger. I thought that the person was my classmate.. and so I replied back this morning.

Turns out he missent the message cos he wasnt my classmate after all. We do go to the same university but we have different courses. He's a film making student. So yeah!

Why im posting this? Cos I'm wondering how my number reached him!!

Bone Tired.

hey, finished P.E. Lessons about half an hour ago and just like after every P.E. classes.. I am so exhausted. Today we did a 10 metre shuttle run, long jumps and the seat and reach exercise. Anyways, too exhausted to cook so I'll be going out with a friend to dinner in the mall in right about 10 minutes.

Wonderful weekend.

The weekend was a blast. Disappointed that it had to end so quickly. Wished that my family was there to enjoy it with me too. Have a crush on this guy who payed for a meal in a beautiful restaurant. hahah!


Anyways, my classes has ended for about two hours ago. And knowing that I'll be alone in the unit . With nothing or no one around but the lonely, deadly silence to comfort me is just something that I have started to dread. But here are afew things that keep me alive:

• DVDs.
• me laptop and cellphones.
• the gym, garden and the rooftop overviewing the city.
• new CREATIVE iPod.
• STARBUCKS branches (they're just always around the corner!)
• Food - my best company!!
• Not to mention... the ONE and ONLY... CHOCOLATES!!!

the strangest feeling

Ok I know that it's not normal for me to write an entry twice a day but this I juust gotta write about. So I was browsing the internet.... and I came across a page of an old friend. He may have been the sweetest most amazing guy friend I may have ever known. Why do I say that? Well, there was a point in my life where I got bullied but afew of my classmates. I have no idea for what particular reason specificly but yeah. I was.

And being so, it came to the point where no one wanted to be my friend because once they talked to me.. that person too would be tortured by the same bully. So yeah. Anyways, I had no one by my side. No one to talk to and no one to help me with the doubts I was having with the lessons which were bing taught to us.

And one day, that special friend came up to me and sat beside me. Asked me what the hell I was doing sitting alone all by myself. I explained to him about the bullies.. thinking that he didn't know. But he did. And he told me.

So what happened you all may ask? Well, instead of turning his back on me just like everone else.. he HELD my hand. Saying that everything was going to be okay. And yes, he too got bullied. But he didn't take any of it. Neither did he take any of it seriously. I was so amazed with him that we became really good friends.. he taught me how to play piano. And I taught him the basics of singing.

I knew that I wasn't alone anymore. He was so different. So unique. So special.

But when I left for further studies.. we lost touch. He was so busy being in a varsity. and I was busy with my own life too.

And just afew minutes ago.. I saw his page. And he now too.. has someone special in his life. Someone who would love him back.. To make him happy. I just hope he doesn't get hurt.

But writing all these.. I know I can never build up the guts to spill it out on him. To say how he made my life easier, bearable.. and for showing me that I shouldn't care what others think of me. And that I should live life to the fullest. Hence, I am so thankful to God for giving me a friend like him. He made me happy once, now.. it's his turn to be happy too.

back at home with real food and real people

I'm here in the province for the weekend. And so far it rocks. First off.. guys seem to endlessly introduce themselves to me this week. And I never thought I'd ever say this.. but guys actually make a very good company. Even better than girls sometimes. I mean, here in uni.. most of the girls are all about gossips and girl talks and all those kikay-ish types who talk about guys, make up, clothes ALL THE TIME.. I don't think I'll ever be one of those. But not wanting to be close to them doesn't mean that I don't like 'em.. They're nice and all.. it's just me I guess. Anyways, I have to go now.. must enjoy the food before I go back to fast foods and junks on tuesday! Love y'all! Ttfn!

my first P.E. class in 5 years

150 sit-ups, 20 push ups and 100 step ins. That's what we did just now. And truthfully, it's not bad at all. Infact I never knew that I could do it til today. Haha! Having asthma and all has always excused me from getting too exhausted. But this year I wanted it to be different - and so it's starting to be. Sighs!

Craziness!! My head hurts!

Well I lost track of what time it is right now. But the list of things to do is still endless. I think my head is never around anymore. I think it just stays at my condo while I go and rush of to uni.. Trying really hard to be strong and hoping that everything would come back to normal... but I don't really know when that time will ever be. Anyways, atleast the pile of homework has decreased to a very little amount. But hey, that's abit of an improvement right? Anyways, it is my first time being completely independent. Yes, as in COMPLETELY. I was left off here in the BIG city while my aunt who usually takes care of me is back in the province (yes, the one which takes about 7 hours) So yeah, been doing things by myself. Arggh! This is really crazy aye??

I had spiced up noodles with abit of steamy hot soup, steamed hot dogs (cooked/ heated by me) Haha! 2 bars of snickers energy bar and a bottle of Getorade and of course, 2 cups of wonderfully distilled water. Nit bad aye? For the first time? haha!

I need to survive!

Omg! Dennis, you're back! haha, it's okay. I know how life gets pretty hectic sometimes.

Anyways, it has officially been my second week in this uni. And MAN it's tiring. With no car to drive.. you really get muscle aches in the places where you didn't even know possible. Man, who would have known that life would be like this? yeah yeah, I know.. God. But common!

Sighs.

I get the feeling that I'm so not making any sense once again.. but hey, it's MY blog. So I'm writing down what's really in my head. Anyways, homeworks for me have piled up in my room. And whenever I get home.. I kinda hear voices telling me to do them. And get it all done with. But my body's telling me to rest!!

Geesh!!

And living life withou a family isn't as easy as most people think. You gotta do laundry, clean up, do the dishes, pile everything up neatly cos you never really know who'd suddenly give you surprise visits. Gosh! And the chores... gosh they're endless! Homeworks aren't even included here. Arrrgggghh!!!

Right now I have to do a coverage on the components on physical fitness, a review on a long, long quiz in algebra, research in the means of communicating in fiipino, photocopy my sem's sched and do an early reading on Jose Rizal and afew important occasions that happened in the 19th century.

Please my friends... pray for me...... and that I'll live a longer life!

Life's like this.

Well, classes have officially started. And achedemically, it's good. Made friends already but I just don't feel like hanging out much with them. I don't know why. Anyways, the uni is a cool place. We have access to all the past articles since the 18th century I think.. maybe even further (?) We have no limitations to go online. They can even provide us with free internet access at home. So many cute guys too. Anyways, been busy.. infact I am busy right now.. but considering that I haven't been online much.. I owe you guys this update.

You take care!